i hate.

1. cramming with my plates. but i still do it. because all the time, i'm earlier than everybody else. when i'm done with a plate, others are still starting. grrrrrrr.

2. being praning. (explains no.1)



but right now, i hate being bubbly and joyful. i don't want to laugh in the house. neither smile. i want to go out. and there i will enjoy more. i want to go baguio, to vigan, to boracay. but since i'm also broke - it seems that i also cannot.

why i'm not in "my right state;"
why i lost all my inspiration;
why i lost enthusiasm in some things.
this is the reason.


now, i'm cramming a plate on fa13. but i don't want to even finish it.